Why do i feel like my lifes being controlled?

Sounds to me like your letting these things control your life. You cant sit there and feel sorry for yourself you need to get a job make some money and go meet some people. Socialize lots. Also go out once in a while and do things that YOU liek to do. things that you enjoy doing, dont let other people get in your way and dont let them control your life. And remember you only live once, live liek your going to die tomorrow